I have just become aware that this blog is popular on a bunch of the porn news websites. Being an extremely vain person, i am annoyed beyond belief they are using some busted pics of me from years ago that were taken from the movie "The Driver". I can express to you more how i am embarrassed every single time i see these pics. So, please, if your gonna talk about this blog and my miserable life, please help me with my insecurities an use a current pic like the one above. Fuck!
Thanks,
Erik
I'll be writing more later tonight. Stay Tuned.
18 comments:
Don't kill yourself. A pornstar committing suicide is SUCH a cliche. I mean really you can totally turn your life around. You're leaving porn and hopefully doing something productive with yourself. It seems you need to work on your friendships before getting into or continuing on your relationship. Living well is the best revenge. Don't let them will.
ur blog makes me want to hug the shit outta you, i love you.
Erik,
Sorry to hear you're having such a hard time with the breakup. I totally understand. The persona everyone envisions is probably the one that you are least like. Hold in there buddy, I'm sure things will work out in the end for you. You're a talented individual who has more to offer then a hot ass and nice cock. It just takes a special person to see through the skin and see the deeper side of you.
Hey Erik - I was where you are, and I know it's hard to believe but things do get better. You have a lot of people who care about you - who don't necessarily know you, but who care what happens to you. You're not alone here.
Do you have any most satisfactory pic with Falcon? I like the one on Cross Country (I hope you don't complain that one too).
I can't see the pic :[
this is your place to vent to others who will listen and offer any advice :]
Love ya dude!
Do you want to add your names to that of Haus Weston, Johnny Rahm, Joe Romero, Danny Roddick, Brett Mycles, Kent North, and Cody Foster?
Look on the bright side. At least you're not Brad Renfro.
Hey Eric...I just dicovered your blog and have read many of your posts. I feel bad that you don't see alot of what we see. As sexy and amazing as you are in your films, It's all the "behind the scenes" footage of you that really appeals to me. You're extremely funny, intelligent and charming. Which makes you even sexier. You have an amazing physical presence that matches your endearing personalty. You're a complete package and I know you'll figure it out and let yourself find the happiness you deserve.
Hey Erik,
I just caught up with your last few posts. I am moved by your last few articles, and that doesn't mean I gotta take a shit! Ha Ha.
I've been a fireman here in Southern California for over 10 years now, and truly love the job. I get to drive a fire engine through red lights, save people from burning buildings (like that happens a lot), and the adrenaline rush every time you work keeps me coming back for more!
However, this job is definitely working in the "machismo" world. You can hear the way the other firemen comment on fags, how they fucked their women, and the such. This doesn't happen at all the stations and all the time, but the atmosphere can still be there.
I am still in the closet for fear of being treated differently when at work, and getting that "I don't know if I trust him" type response from co-workers even if I did come out. I never really date, let alone go to any gay bar, for fear of someone finding out. The only gay bars I've been to are at times when I have to walk through certain bars/clubs in the Hollywood area to check for overcrowding and exiting issues. It looks like it could be fun, but I dare not show it. You definitely get the grab-assing when you walk through clubs like that in full uniform!
I do agree with you also on being gay. I don't find too many gay men that are attractive to me. The more effeminate they are and "lispy" they are, the more I am repulsed. I have come to the conclusion that they probably can't help themselves, and that they, too, were born that way, although one of my straight friends think they purposely put on the "lisp" to attract other gay guys.
Pretty much all my friends are straight. I wish I wasn't gay, and that I had a wife and family I could take to the "river" with the rest of my fireman friends when they go! I can still have fun with my friends at the river, but sometimes it's a little uncomfortable when they say things like, "How come you're not married yet? Are you gay?"...or try to set me up with one of their single female friends. As hard as it is, I just suck it up.
I wish there a pill to take that could make one straight! I really do hate it, but I deal with it. I had thoughts of suicide in my teens, but I got over that as I got older, and especially when I landed this job.
Anyways, enough of me rambling on. Hopefully you make a wise decision in your choice with Falcon (I don't think you made one yet, have you?)...a decision that you can be comfortable with that will affect the rest of your life.
Wow - i can not believe the comment down there - whew.
Eric, I wish you would chin up some.
You and I are the same age (I think). None of us as gay men relate. It's not just you.
As a minority that celebrates pride and togetherness, I find it 10x worse as there's more snottiness, judgment and clicks than any people I know. It's worse now as a gay man in "the scene" than it EVER was in high school.
My bf and I broke up this weekend. He smashed my laptop and I busted his big screen tv. So I'm feelin' ya.
Our thing is, we only fight when we drink. People have started to realize that and talk about it as well. I had to step back and think about that for a minute. Maybe we should not drink for a little bit?
You mention party favors throughout your blog and myspace. Maybe that's a sign? I'm not judging you, but maybe, if you're so down like this all the time and people are talking about you like you are a "meth head" or whatever - maybe it's just something to step back and look into. Not that you are or anything - I don't know you - I'm just sayin'.
I do hope you start seeing the light side of things. Porn star or not, you're a handsome guy with a sense of humor. I wish you knew how many people would kill to BE you.
Dear Erik
Always remember you have fans.
Fans that care & admire you.
I also wanna hug you right about now...
Love
KRISTOFER
You make me so happy that I come from millions.
Dont delete negative comments it makes you seem like a pussy. It's like you believed in Santa til you were 17.
Stilleto Kisses...but dont touch
nice pic
"Connell" needs to shut the fuck up.
DntBChaotic0701 said...
"this is your place to vent to others who will listen and offer any advice :]" - uh huh, in light of the number of porn sites linking to this, one needs to be aware that it's a useful way of collecting gossip too.
Thanks for the pic Erik.
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